Signing off..
This journal thing is too much. Writing is sometimes too much. I feel as if I'm always under pressure lately, or forgetting things. I could be because of the new job and long commute, but I don't know.
Most of the time, I spend seated at my computer trying to justify why I'm trying to write when I feel like my brain is one big constipated mess, frankly.
I'm missing important dates, bills are piling up that I can't pay or that I'm trying to pay in time enough to avoid shut off. It's given me migraines again and made me want to do nothing more than sleep. When I'm not sleeping in what little free time I have, I'm ignoring or forgetting those I care about and letting time slip away.
I'm ready to simply bury my head in the sand and not come out. If life is a game, I'm failing at it badly. Very badly.
This is my last entry here. One less pressure to do something, one less thing to remember in the ever growing list of things I keep forgetting or that I'm too brainless to keep up with.
Most of the time, I spend seated at my computer trying to justify why I'm trying to write when I feel like my brain is one big constipated mess, frankly.
I'm missing important dates, bills are piling up that I can't pay or that I'm trying to pay in time enough to avoid shut off. It's given me migraines again and made me want to do nothing more than sleep. When I'm not sleeping in what little free time I have, I'm ignoring or forgetting those I care about and letting time slip away.
I'm ready to simply bury my head in the sand and not come out. If life is a game, I'm failing at it badly. Very badly.
This is my last entry here. One less pressure to do something, one less thing to remember in the ever growing list of things I keep forgetting or that I'm too brainless to keep up with.
posted by W. Olivia at 6:14 AM
1 Comments:
hey hey - this feeling will go again. You know, I am in the same chaos as U since some time and will stay like that for a while :( Now I write all tasks in my calendar and give then halfways fixed times, when one does not get finished, it is still on tomorrow, and the next is started at least, and nothing forgotten. That even gives me time to blog a bit and look around. lol, i made 4 entries in 4 months, but quitting what one likes most? - why do u want to punish urself additionally for working too much?
hope to hear from u some time
Take ur time, stay calm, even hell has an exit, ok, so don't give up
;)
~Neila~Sabine~
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